Questions to ponder in med psychology class:
1) How do you feel when you think about death?
2) When you are with terminal-ill patient, what do you think about or how do you feel?
3) What's the most difficult for you when you are with terminal-ill patient?
my reply that day:
When I think of death,
I feel the sense of relief because it's finish.
We have finish running our race, and according to my belief, we'll meet God face to face whether we go heaven or hell.
'cause if I'm having a terminal disease, I still have the little time left to live. So I can make the last effort to fulfill the task and responsibilities, sharing love and spending time with loved ones. Basically leaving a living legacy?
and if let's say I'm a patient who died on the spot, then of course I wouldn't have the time to think about what can be done. So living day by day as much as we can to the fullest or last days will be better.
When I'm with terminal ill patient,
I feel the need to cheer person up and give them a fighting spirit?
What's difficult for me when I'm with terminal ill patient is,
it's difficult to see patient's suffering and still giving hope/ showing empathy.
I know there're better examples of answers definitely much more compassionate than mine. Some people might think I'm really naive and optimistic about death, maybe... It's always easy to say than done.
...
Today, I got news from friends that a schoolmate, one year younger than me have passed away yesterday. He's just 20. I didn't know who he was when I saw his name, till I find him through facebook. Such a bright face and brilliant student. He's studying in US and was just planning to return home -Malaysia in a weeks time.
Who knew that before going home he was in the car accident.
Next thing, "R.I.P" and heart aching wall posts from friends,
and later dozens of wall posts became a memorial wall.
As optimistic as I am previously about death,
when I knew about this news, my heart aches. I feel sad because he ended his life much earlier than everyone else. Then I feel relieved because he is a Christ believer and I know he will be in heaven.
for now, the naive me thinks "I would rather have the few days to live to send my last words to my loved ones," than to leave this earth in 3 seconds.
the reality is, we don't know when and how we will die.
So... should we be afraid of death?
all I've got to say is Love your Life and Live it Loud.
Come what may, but
Leave an amazing testimony, a legacy about YOU.
What influence and inspiration you've given to people around you.
with love,
chill-k
Just wanna write this to remind myself what I did. LOL.
